I try to have patience with these kinds of things. I know these things move slowly and that this experience is typical of the stage of life I’m at right now. But dear god it gets frustrating at a certain point.
College is over. People move away. I have friends, I have a good amount of them, they’re good people, I love them all very much. I just haven’t been able to experience getting to know someone new in a while now. I join volunteer groups, I go to events, I chat with people at bars. I make acquaintances. I download an app, I sleep with someone, I cry alone afterwards. Nothing really clicks with anyone. I don’t know if it’s a matter of luck or I just can’t find the proper environment for making friends.
I go solo somewhere and everyone is already in groups with their friends. I go with someone else and we just end up talking together. I’d love to join a band or something but I have horrible coordination with making music with other people. I am absolutely terrible at any sport at all.
Part of the problem I think is that the people I tend to click with are usually a bit introverted. How am I supposed to find them if they’re all in their houses?
I probably need to just accept that this is the way things are, that you can’t make friends like you did in college in the same way that you can’t make friends like you did at 5 years old on the playground. It’s just a little sad to think about.
I hate being a complainer, I promise this is only the most whiny part of me talking right now. It’s just been bothering me for a while now.