…. Sorry if you drove by to see if I was on my front porch last night, I fell asleep dreaming of you, so it might really be me still. I will be going away for a few days (to my happy place you used to go to with me) and then I will be back to try again. In my heart, I want to believe that though we both are living our new lives these years, and though I never see you (except for recently when I saw you at the recycling centre, my heart raced), that you might still care for me. I know you loved me once, I know I made you laugh, I know you cracked me up too. I know we had amazing sex, I know you are much more than that to me. I know if i could hold you again just once, we could just heal our hearts with all the words needed, and with the heat of our bodies next to each other. Gn my precious delicate red flower. Wish you could come with me, it is so much better now. ❤️🌺