Another weekend has come and gone. It was nice, to bad its over. Went and visited my Mother at her grave site. Paying respect. I miss her so much!!! Still really disappointed i haven't gone to the gym in over a week. Shoulder tendins are still hurting really bad. Was just starting to make real progress. Geuss ill try tomorrow and just go light. Its aggravating. But all my old clothes and jackets are really baggy on me. Time to buy a new coat. Cant believe ive lost 30ish lbs in ten months. Just still suffer with depression and anxiety. Feel like my life had been shattered and I have to start over and rebuild. Church is very important, but not sure if I should stay where im at or find another religion. Wish youd help. Don't know what to do. Shouldn't be this difficult 😕