So I've spent maybe a month gathering activity partners, reading missed connections, spending a little too much time at work looking at Craigslist. In this time a few things have happened:
I've found several really cool women to hang with and at least one guy who seems to want to be my friend even though it's very clear we will never have sex.
I've put myself into a couple of awkward situations with people who I felt weird around or seemed to feel weird around me.
I've vented about my ex-lover against my better judgment. (I don't think you saw that but if you did, very sorry. I was a little sad and angry and too close to the computer when you sent me that letter.)
I've developed a complex because I'm not tall, blond, asian, black, nordic, latina, fillipina, curvy or skinny.
I've worried I have multicultural fetish because I've loved and had amazing sex with asian, black and white men at different times in my life.
I've wondered if I can have a white fetish if I date a white man and I'm white.
I've discovered that I'm unusual because I've never had a problem with penis size and because I don't have a fuck buddy or one-night stands (maybe penis size doesn't matter when you have a long-term creative relationship). On a positive note, my breasts are just the right size, but then I kinda knew that.
I've learned that if I post for anything where I say I'm female, I will get 30 replies from men with pictures. I can't decide if I think they are brave or stupid. If I don't say I'm a woman, I'll get people actually want to do whatever it is I posted for, usually women.
I've briefly thought about posting a real MC for the incredibly hot guy who looked back at me as I rode by on my bike today, and then decided against it. I wouldn't know how to have a conversation that starts with, "so yeah, I thought you were really hot. Did you think I was hot too?"
Finally, the last couple of days, I've realized that guys like the way I look even though I don't fall into any of the categories discussed here and that I'm not 1/10th as shy or isolated as I thought I was when I first came here.
Based on that, I think I'm ready to go back out into the real world now. I may come back to find people who want to see the same shows I do, but the real world is looking a little more fun now.