Originally Posted: 2005-03-25 4:35pm
I love you
Hope y'all don't mind me posting this here, just have to get it out.
You know, most of us have gotten those emails of do what you need to do today, in case there is no tomorrow. But, what gets me more than that is just thinking of when will be the last time? When will be the last time I GET to change a diaper? When will be the last time she sleeps in the middle? When will be the last time she wants to "cuddle"? When will be the last time 'Daddy get's a hug'? When will be the last time I toss her in the air? When will be the last time she falls asleep on my chest? When will be the last time she says "mah-mah" or "dah-dah"? When will be the last we GET to give her a bath? When will be the last time she cries just because we want to put her down? When will be the last time I can brush the hair from her face without her pushing my hand away? When will be the last time I get to see that expression from a funky food I gave her? When will be the last time I GET to buckle her in her car seat. When will be the last time I GET to carry her?
You know, many of these things I take for granted right now, and I shouldn't. As stated above, many of us get the 'no tomorrow' emails, but do we ever just think of when things just 'stop' happening? At some point as children, we made an unconscious to stop giving our parents a kiss good night. At some point we decided to not say I love you (as much). At some point we began feeding ourselves. At some point we decided our bed was much more roomy and comfortable by ourselves. Did we think about it? No. Did our parents think about it? Probably not. It just happens. No one knows when, or (usually) why, it just does, we just stop.
Well, I'm going to try and do my best to enjoy these moments while I have them. And notice I stressed the GET's above, because while they seem like chores now, someday we WILL miss GETTING to do these things.
So, I'm about to leave work and go home where I will GET to walk my dog down three flights of stairs with my baby girl in my arms, allowing me to kiss her cheeck and tell her I love her.
Chloe, you will more than likely never see this message, but I love you more than anything God ever put on this earth and I hope I am able to express that to you properly.
I love you,